My time in Costa Rica thus far has been good. Different than El Salvador. Not in a better or worse way. Simply different. But this month (I think of each country as a month because of my time on the World Race) has been tough on me. Between Insanity, cooking, cleaning, school, cutting down Banana trees, Church, World Bible College, seeing the sites- it’s been a busy couple of weeks. And for the most part the days have been great. But as with life, there have been those rough days. Days where I’m tired, needing alone time, sore, not feeling strong with God- just a variety of different things.
There was one day in particular where everything seemed to go against me. Feeling inadequate with physical labor, comparing my life with those of my teammates, not having sufficient time to read my Bible and spend with God. I was just ready to go to bed and forget it all.
Then 5:30pm rolls around and the sun begins to set. And just as background, sunsets are my favorite time of day. My favorite color is orange and I love seeing all the colors, especially orange, when the sun is going to sleep for the night. And because I am never awake to see the sun rising. So this particular night, I am a wreck. I’m crying. Wanting to be alone. And then BAM the sun begins setting. I grab my journal and go sit in a field watching the view.
Let ME romance you Daughter.
Let ME love you my Beloved.
Let ME cherish you.
Let ME be the ONE you turn to.
Let ME be your Father.
At this time when the sky was on fire- God was there. God was showing me His love, mercy, power and grace for me. It made me realize that everything that was bothering me this day was petty in regards to the big scheme of my life. Yeah, life won’t be perfect. Yeah I’m not perfect. But I am God’s daughter and He loves me. And that’s all that really matters. So every time I see the sunset here- which is beautiful every night by the way- I am reminded of God’s promise of redemption and grace for me.
